» listening to truth .

hmm ... ain`t been here in a while .. echoo echoo ... guess no one still loves me . ain`t that too bad . lifes ups and downs love to throw me up in the air and lower the net closer and closer to the ground as i fall . classes are okay .. some over crowded [ history , french ] and some are just plain old unnecessary like P. E . and P.O.P [ personal orientation project = overly happy teacher   unnecessary class that gives free credits ] and then there`s PRE - AP MATH  ENGLISH .

i could not have asked for anything better . pre - ap math = a slight struggle but i`ll get it eventually and pre - ap english = best course ever . free reading writing . and HARDLY ANY GROUP WORK , because i really don`t want to work with other students in my class . i mean .. they`re nice and all , but we think on two totally different levels . mine is excruciatingly more morbid than theirs . most of the people in my class are optimistic where i am the pessimist / realist . new book in the library that i`m reading "mercury under my tongue" by sylvain trudel . beautifully written book , i actually plan on not returning it for a while .. the librarian and i have a understanding .. appreciate her . getting to sample all the books before they`re sent on their way to be hustled , thrown , ripped , tossed , soaked and trashed by the common day to day student of my high school . always yelling in the library .. a place for quiet . how much i would give to pour concrete down their throats and numb their voice boxes so i could concentrate . sigh .

but i did get a new straightening iron ^_^ . so now my african - american / japanese / caucasian hair is all pretty and straight .. not that its not pretty when its curly .. i like it both ways . i can comb it into a mohawk now .. sweet . i already have layers.. but i`mma wait a little longer & get a cute little scene / anime cut . but still something that i can swoop up into a bun when it comes to the traditonal stuff with kimonos and the slippers .. whole nine .